Trials of a time past.Today I went here grocery shopping to get enough food to last me the week. This was always the place that I always used to go shopping for food. It’s about a mile trek away from home which is significant through city blocks. I went inside to buy packs to boneless skinless chicken breast and frozen vegetables—the usual you know. As I walked back home with a heavy load of groceries on each hand, I remembered how this was my weekly struggle. Every week I would come here and walk with these groceries home for over a mile. It was a reminder of the struggle that I endured before I got to this comfortable life I now have.
I am at the time of the year when it seems I am itching for change and something new. A year ago I said to myself that I wouldn’t be moving so soon, that I would try and build a comfort zone and get acquainted with an area for a couple of years. And now, exactly a year later I am looking at moving to the Bay Area. There always seems to be some reason too.
I’m afraid that I’m searching for something that I’m never going to find. I’m afraid that I’m stuck in some sort of bad cycles. I said to myself last year that a company or a job should not dictact where you live. The problem for me is that it seems all the interesting work seems to be taking place in the Bay Area. I have made a sincere effort to search for interesting work locally but I just cannot find any in Orange County. There isn’t anything that appeals to me and if there is it’s a place with too much corporate culture for my tastes.
I have also extended my search to San Diego. There are some interesting defense jobs out there. I kinda miss the feel of defense industry work, or I could just be suffering from ‘Grass is Greener’. Right now though, just about any grass looks greener than the Test Automation crap hole I’m stuck in.
Once again, who knows where I will end up.
I feel the need to share….
A little disclaimer
I’m not afraid of sharing developments in my life. This is my space and I have the freedom to say what I want. You choose to come here and read. These are my thoughts and feelings and I am entitled to them.
Outspokenness is one of my core personality traits. I will always say what is honest and what is on my mind. I am not the type to hold my tongue just for the sake of social cohesion.
Part of my philosophy is to always be honest with myself and others. I want to life the life I intend to life the way I intend to live it. Part of that is getting comfortable sharing that life with others without feeling bashful or ashamed.
I am really dressing tomorrow. I am getting braces. It’s such an investment economically and time wise. I’m also afraid of what it’s going to do to my love life.
Tomorrow is also my first day back at work from my little mini vacation trip. I’m getting my annual performance review done. Given how sketchy things have been lately, I’m not really looking forward to it. Lets just say I’m expecting anything at this point. In the meantime I’m staying positive and keeping my options wide open, although I already know how my heart feels.
I admit I miss this blog dateadreg .
I’m in a similar boat to the author though: just haven’t had the time to write lately. It’s going to take time to start sharing personal stuff again, but I can do it.
Smaller posts, more often. That’s how I want to tackle it. Just need to build up the habit again.
So stressed out. I’ve been dealing with a lot of things simultaneously lately. I feel like I need some downtime. The job is taking me in a direction, forcing me to learn new things. Also, I’m having to absorb a ton of information and knowledge in order to develop my business’s app and cloud services. I’m learning, but it is painful.
Looking forward to developing the Cloud services and the Android app. Wish I could do this full time. I feel like I’m done operating on someone else’s mission. What fulfills me as an Engineer is doing stuff no-one else doing, not copying and re-inventing wheels. I want to feel like I contribute.
Also, I miss writing here…
now all this situation have pushed me to move with my brother, lost my job but i had some money saved!
i couldnt take nothing with me but my wallet! so had to buy some shoes because my brothers size is 10 1/2 and im a size 9
Ladies and gentlemen, my brother.
I decided to start business. Very exciting. Wellington is always doing crazy things. Let’s do it!